paralysis

i never dreams about scary
i never wish about nightmare
when im alone, sleeping, feeling empty
i just make my self relax with the situation
just want to rested my peacefull life

never imagine before
i meet something / or someone
when empty mind, empty feel, empty room
feels alone

heavy and cold
like something couldnt tell anyone
and i cant tell anyone
about this feeling
like tragedy...

colorized my world

because i need
more than black and white
im in between
grey
the blur and unsigned
tak berarah , tak ada tujuan

my complex emotions

too fast to move
too fast to change
my moody, going bloody
from angry to happy

in the middle of the emotions
i've got a complex feeling
make it crusher
until being brag..
but i never meant to do that

in the end of the complex emotions
i have an okay situation
you always make me hanging on
until forever

insomnia

its too early for dreaming
The only reason I have insomnia is because I hate nightmare.....
Keep alive is better than breathing without dreaming....
...Fight with reality and without duality
I guess, dream is the 1st thing about tomorrow....
Memories keeping you to step more carefully

because
U'll always start ur day with silent and dark...
00:00
.... but remember,
'STARS ALWAYS SHINING' ,
cloudy make u more survive...

That's not about fear of nightmare.. That's just make me feel better trough my day

hey :)

i guess, i have spend my time
to let you know
to let you tell me first

thats start a long ago
when first time we met
in a unpredictable moment
that can make me
fall with you

u are so nice with me
welcome and caring me
you always take a special time for me

but i dont know what to say
that
i love you
from the first time, Bandung....
until yet...

i found you
but you have to find yours...
before you tell it for me.. :)

feminity

sedikit bertolak belakang
ketika dihadapkan
pada satu keharusan
feminitas

takdir, memang jalannya
harus dihadapi jika kamu wanita

menjadi seutuhnya
dan yang seharusnya

cukup tak bisa mengambil kendali
sedikit terjerumus dengan ironi
yang tak biasa, harus dibiasakan

its all about girl, girly and feminity
you were born for this
have a lil rebel and destiny

raining - 03.37

hujan pagi ini
menjagaku dari insomnia
menemaniku dari lelah
yang tak mau diajak berdiskusi

mata dan raga terjaga
membuat diri kosong, tak melakukan apa apa

dini hari adalah waktuku berbagi
dengan sepi dan sendiri
gelap sebagai pelengkap
agar lebih terasa pekatnya suasana hati

aku masih terus berusaha
menghilangkan rasa kecewa dan sakit
yang kau tandai
tapi aku juga tak mampu
melarikan diri dari sayang yang masih ada
menjadi saksi dari yang sudah terjadi

antara aku.....
....dan kamu

sejenak kau beri aku kebahagiaan
dan persembahan yang membuatku
makin sulit menjauhi semua ini

tapi setelah ini,
jaminan saja
kau pasti pergi lagi
dengan seribu alasan
yang bodohnya, aku bisa terima

hujan, 03.37
pagi buta
dingin.. membuatku tahu
aku masih ditemani rintik
meramaikan kesepianku....